In support of my commitment to return to writing, I glanced through my writing books to spend a couple hours reigniting excitment. Like most writers, I have quite a library of titles.
Writing the Breakout Novel, by Donald Maass?
Techniques of the Selling Writer, by Dwight Swain?
GMC by Debra Dixon?
These three books, among many more, are truly inspirational works guaranteed to get the creative juices flowing. No writing reference section is complete without them. Instead, since afterall this is a Sunday afternoon, I turned to a more inspirational source.
Write His Answer, by Marlene Bagnull
Write His Answer gives thought to why we write. In short, concise, informative chapters, Ms Bagnull opens her own writing journey to the world, filled with all the pitfalls and detours we all experience in life. She made herself vulnerable to me, and in return, I completed the exercise sections at the end of each chapter with humiliating honesty. Though I haven't read the book in its entirety, I do see a lot of wisdom in her words effecting my life.
First and foremost, I'm forced to admit, I'm fragmented. I grant the same importance to so many voices, prioritizing is impossible. So often I give up in frustration before I even sit down before the computer screen. How do I know I've been called to write? I know I've been called to write because deep down the desire burns unceasingly.
Well, fine. But how do you know what to write? The answer is in James Chapter 1:
5 If you need wisdom--if you want to know what God wants you to do--ask Him and He will gladly tell you. He will not resent your asking.
Silly me, I've always known that! That verse leaves you with warm, fuzzy feelings knowing God will answer prayer. . .it's the next verse that made me sit up and pay attention as I planned on asking God for his guidance.
6 But when you ask Him, be sure that you really expect Him to answer, for a doutful mind is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind.
Since my childhood, I've known God answers prayer. Maybe not as I'd like, but He answers. I must unceasingly pray that I hear His answer when He gives it. But wait, that's not all. . .
7 People like that should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 They can't make up their minds. They waver back and forth in everything they do.
Ouch!! That's me, the flag waving in the wind. Is this what God wants?...no, no, this is what God wants...is this the story You want me to tell?...hmm, how about this one?...wait, this one is so timely...
All around the bush I chase, never stopping to taste the berries God has blessed me with.
There is a silver lining in my story of indecision. Before I stopped my study time, I opened my Bible to a Psalm where I often find comfort. Psalm 32 remains a strong influence in my life, but one verse left a deep groove in my brain:
"The Lord says, "I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you." Psalm 32:8
This afternoon, I found peace. I know the road ahead of me is rocky and full of pitfalls, but the Lord is guiding me if I but ask and listen.
Stay tuned, I'll let you know how it goes. . .better yet, how about if you come along? In God's kingdom, there's always room for more.
Blessings in Jesus' name,